Goodbye 2006

Another year.. Another "new" me..

Thanks to the trials! Thanks to reasons for crying! Thanks to the discovery!

Sa mga kumakalaban sa aken, wag niyo na akong sirain. Di ko kayo papatulan. Hindi ako mag-iistoop sa level niyo..

Kaya layuan niyo na lang ako..

To the people I love and care for, thanks for everything! Mahal ko kayo!

New Hair

Had a haircut and I have new hair, hehehehe

Mukha kang bata!

Nakakainis lang naman...

Pero wala lang sa akin yun...

Sabi ng facilitator namin kanins mukha daw akong 12 years old na pinabili ng nanay ko ng suka.. Grrr...
Nakakainis sinabi rin ito ng mga friends ko, mukha kang 12 years old. Grade 6 daw..
HUHUHUHU..
Totoy daw..
HUHUHUHUHU...

Anu ba?

Anu kaya dapat ko gawin?
HMMMMM....

First Love

First Love
by Marcia Millman

Part One: Escape

The story of First Love revolves around two basic themes: separating from our parents and establishing our own identity. These challenges are never totally resolved, and they affect all our love choices, but our first experience of romantic love is especially tied to our need to separate from our parents.
For example, you may choose a lover from a different world, or one your parents don't approve of, as a way of helping you move away from your parents' world and their assumptions. just asserting your sexuality and becoming intimate with someone from outside the family already moves you some distance away from the confines of your home.
Some people deal with their fears of separating by finding a parental substitute: perhaps an older or idealized figure. And others make a choice that avoids or minimizes the break: they find a partner who keeps them tied into their childhood worlds -- a person chosen by their parents or one who grew up in similar circumstances.
Separating from our parents and finding our own identity are closely intertwined because the only way to form our own identities is to question our parents' values. Growth comes from reexamining the beliefs and behaviors we grew up with. You are not exactly like your parents, and adolescence is usually the time when young people need to recognize that difference and become the person they want to be. If you don't examine the values you grew up with, you lose the opportunity to grow beyond what you were given by your parents.
If you choose a partner whose childhood was just like yours -- someone your parents might have chosen for you -- you are entering into something like an old-fashioned arranged marriage. It's possible that your parents might have chosen someone good for you -- most parents would try. And it's not necessary for you to pick someone your parents don't like in order to separate from them. But if you never question their values and assumptions, and you let them decide (directly or indirectly) who your partner will be, you are passing up the opportunity to grow and develop your own identity.
In our culture, which stresses individual freedom, an adolescent is expected to "find" his or her own identity as part of maturing. But some adolescents find this frightening, and many others are inhibited or made to feel guilty by parents who never gave them permission to grow away.
Permission to Separate
By permission I mean that parents must allow their children to become independent and different, and eventually to have a life that does not have their parents at the center of it. It's painful for most parents to see their babies finally fly away from the nest. But good parents prepare for this all along -- always letting their children separate from them when they are ready and able, always letting their children become their own persons. It happens right from the start, when the little toddler is taking her first steps -- which will eventually lead her away.
It's a delicate process, not only because it's painful for the parents, but also because the child has mixed feelings about separating as well. But parents who don't allow their children to separate are giving them the following message: "Your independence from me and your happiness being away from me, or with somebody else, hurts me and does me harm." This is not the kind of message that encourages a child to be happy.
If your parents didn't give you permission to separate, you must find someone else -- a peer or a parental surrogate -- who will help you feel that leaving them is allowed.

The Continuous Self

All of this enters into the equation when we pick our first loves or subsequent loves. And there's an additional element. One of the reasons we need love is that we need someone to share our lives. We all need someone not only to feel less alone but also because we need a sense of continuity -- the feeling that someone has been with us all of our lives and has shared our experiences. People who haven't shared their lives with someone often feel a loss of themselves, because there's no one who reflects their own existence.
In childhood, we experience that continuity by sharing our lives with our parents; in adulthood, it is usually a partner who fills those needs, although it may also be friends or relatives. This is why people who don't have partners often have a harder time recovering from the death of their parents. When their parents die, they have lost the people who remembered them all their lives.
Finally, a first lover and later loves help us to solidify our identities after childhood because it is now they who reflect our existence -- apart from our parents -- they are the ones who confirm what we have experienced. When adolescents have a hard time breaking away from overpowering parents, they often fall in love with someone "unsuitable" from their parents' point of view, because they need support to move offshore. Others pick someone older and more experienced, in order to feel safe making the break away from home. What they are really doing is picking a parental substitute -- which may not be obvious to them because their lover doesn't look or act at all like their parents.

Making the Break

Breaking away from parents is played out in movies like Titanic and Dirty Dancing, and in part this is why adolescent girls watch these movies over and over. The girl is drawn to the story of a boy from the other side of the tracks who will rescue her from the control of powerful parents: a boy who will love and protect her as much as a parent would -- even sacrificing his own life so she might live.

Source: http://www.innerself.com/Parenting/first_love.htm

Isa muling Sudden Fiction

"Magaling ako magtago ng nararamdaman ko. Sa sobrang galing ko, pati sarili ko... Natatago ko na!"

Better safe than sorry

Sana manalo ako.. hehehehe

The result of lack of sleep in the past weeks

I don't want to fail thesis 2!

I want to graduate as soon as I can!

I want my last term in DLSU to be 3rd term, 2006-2007!

I want to be looking for a job in summer 2007!

So I'm striving hard not to sleep in my regular hours.

After getting back on a normal sleep pattern, I am, once again, sleeping on the wee hours of early tomorrow and hearing my celphone alarm before the sun rises.

RESULT: I'm tired and very weak.

Nanginginig na nga ang tuhod ko at mabagal maglakad..

I need some rest.

Sana pumasa na kami para tapos na!

Strive until the end

I've decided to run until my foot breaks..

Bahala, Basta tatakbo na lang ako kahit na madapa.. At least tumakbo...

Strive til the end...

Kahit pagod, kakayanin...

Help!! Inspirational Message

"Ibuhos ang saya hanggang lahat ay mahawa.
Buksan ang sarili. Wag pigilan ang tawa.
Hatakin ang barkada.
Game kahit saan mapunta.
Bagong trip, ba't di subukan?
Sama ka, wagmagpaiwan!
Kilalanin ang kapitbahay.
Batiin ang kaaway.
Pag nadapa, bangon lang.
Pag may tumawa, bow na lang.
Kung matalo, may next time pa.
Kung mahal mo, pakita mo.
Pangarap wag bitiwan.
Malay mo.
Subok lang!"
- Buhay Coke Project

Text from Shan..

Playing with the idea of extending my DLSU stay

Patay na ang thesis naman..

Hindi pa naman over as in over pero 4 weeks to go at less than 5% pa rin ang nagawa at hindi pa kami totally nakakatapos at nagsisimula...

Nakakainis din kasi hindi na talaga kami natuto.. Antagal-tagal ng oras pero anong ginawa namin nag-procrastinate.. Nagsayang ng oras..Nagpakatamad...

Good luck na lang.. Time to test our powers sana strong enough siya to fight, sana...

Pero kundi baka mag-extend kami.. Masaya rin siya in a way. Mag-aaudit ako ng lit courses sa last term ko...

Ewan, wish ko lang matapos namen...

My Porn Plot Movie

Surprise Party
by Thirdy

There you are, lounging around the football field wearing nothing but socks when suddenly the school bell rings. Surprised, you hope it's the pizza because you're starving.....for loving and are happy to see a pizza delivery person sensuously eating a popsicle. As the cheesy music begins you can't help yourself, so you let yourself be taken on the spot, amused by the size of the pizza bill that confronts you. Before you know it a car pulls up and it's the Dallas Cowboys cheerleaders climbing out with arms full of beer. Being the gracious host, you suck all of them, much to their delight.

The air is thick with the smell of burning stew you left on the stove as 3 people are now writhing in a pile on the hood of the car sucking. You're completely absorbed in it, never having enjoyed so many people sucking at once. Suddenly you look up and see a cop staring at you and you grin foolishly. You're caught! They join in and you pull out your badge and welcome them to the XXX-Files as the cheesy music fades out.

Source: http://www.maddogproductions.com/pornomatic1.htm

My Plot for the next big movie, entrance

Romance: A pimply computer nerd teams up with the straightest cop on four continents to investigate dirty cops on the take. In the process they fall in love with a rookie cop. By the end of the movie they run away from 5 washed up ex-SNL cast members and end up winning the admiration of their co-workers, living happily ever after.

Think Titanic meets Drive me Crazy.

Source: http://www.maddogproductions.com/plotomatic.htm

Nang ika'y makilala

Nang ika'y makilala
Thirdy Lopez

Nang ika'y makilala
Ang mundo ko'y sumigla
Maga kulay bumigla
Ibang ngiti'y gumala
Sakit di na lumala
Isip kong inabala
Tamis na alaala
Aking maling akala
'Yong puso wala sala
Aking takot nawala
Nang ika'y makilala

From blogskins

Old post

Last Wednesday, I woke up at 3am. I dunno why and I cannot go back to sleep as I keep thinking about my insecurities and failures. I still keep trying to forget my troubles.

I lie to myself and distract myself by doing other things but somehow its stll there. I came to think. This is one of those things that changes people's lives like bearing a baby at a young age. This is my challenge. This is a calling that wakes me up.

But the blow still hurts, maybe I can't stand up yet.

Unconsciously maybe this is what my body tells me. You can't accept the truth or You're just too afraid to know what really is going on.

Everything was just a dream. You were a phony and all that you did was a joke..

I can't sleep well, maybe I'm not well.

APA on Sexual Orientation

What Is Sexual Orientation?

Sexual Orientation is an enduring emotional, romantic, sexual or
affectional attraction to another person. It is easily distinguished
from other components of sexuality including biological sex, gender
identity (the psychological sense of being male or female) and the
social gender role (adherence to cultural norms for feminine and
masculine behavior).

Sexual orientation exists along a continuum that ranges from
exclusive homosexuality to exclusive heterosexuality and includes
various forms of bisexuality. Bisexual persons can experience
sexual, emotional and affectional attraction to both their own sex
and the opposite sex. Persons with a homosexual orientation are
sometimes referred to as gay (both men and women) or as lesbian
(women only).

Sexual orientation is different from sexual behavior because it
refers to feelings and self-concept. Persons may or may not express
their sexual orientation in their behaviors.


What Causes a Person To Have a Particular Sexual Orientation?

There are numerous theories about the origins of a person's sexual
orientation; most scientists today agree that sexual orientation is
most likely the result of a complex interaction of environmental,
cognitive and biological factors. In most people, sexual orientation
is shaped at an early age. There is also considerable recent
evidence to suggest that biology, including genetic or inborn
hormonal factors, play a significant role in a person's sexuality.
In summary, it is important to recognize that there are probably
many reasons for a person's sexual orientation and the reasons may
be different for different people.


Is Sexual Orientation a Choice?

No, human beings can not choose to be either gay or straight. Sexual
orientation emerges for most people in early adolescence without any
prior sexual experience. Although we can choose whether to act on
our feelings, psychologists do not consider sexual orientation to be
a conscious choice that can be voluntarily changed.


Can Therapy Change Sexual Orientation?

No. Even though most homosexuals live successful, happy lives, some
homosexual or bisexual people may seek to change their sexual
orientation through therapy, sometimes pressured by the influence of
family members or religious groups to try and do so. The reality is
that homosexuality is not an illness. It does not require treatment
and is not changeable.

However, not all gay, lesbian, and bisexual people who seek
assistance from a mental health professional want to change their
sexual orientation. Gay, lesbian, and bisexual people may seek
psychological help with the coming out process or for strategies to
deal with prejudice, but most go into therapy for the same reasons
and life issues that bring straight people to mental health
professionals.


What About So-Called "Conversion Therapies"?

Some therapists who undertake so-called conversion therapy report
that they have been able to change their clients' sexual orientation
from homosexual to heterosexual. Close scrutiny of these reports
however show several factors that cast doubt on their claims. For
example, many of the claims come from organizations with an
ideological perspective which condemns homosexuality. Furthermore,
their claims are poorly documented. For example, treatment outcome
is not followed and reported overtime as would be the standard to
test the validity of any mental health intervention.

The American Psychological Association is concerned about such
therapies and their potential harm to patients. In 1997, the
Association's Council of Representatives passed a resolution
reaffirming psychology's opposition to homophobia in treatment and
spelling out a client's right to unbiased treatment and self-
determination. Any person who enters into therapy to deal with
issues of sexual orientation has a right to expect that such therapy
would take place in a professionally neutral environment absent of
any social bias.


Is Homosexuality a Mental Illness or Emotional Problem?

No. Psychologists, psychiatrists and other mental health
professionals agree that homosexuality is not an illness, mental
disorder or an emotional problem. Over 35 years of objective, well-
designed scientific research has shown that homosexuality, in and
itself,is not associated with mental disorders or emotional or
social problems. Homosexuality was once thought to be a mental
illness because mental health professionals and society had biased
information. In the past the studies of gay, lesbian and bisexual
people involved only those in therapy, thus biasing the resulting
conclusions. When researchers examined data about these people who
were not in therapy, the idea that homosexuality was a mental
illness was quickly found to be untrue.

In 1973 the American Psychiatric Association confirmed the
importance of the new, better designed research and removed
homosexuality from the official manual that lists mental and
emotional disorders. Two years later, the American Psychological
Association passed a resolution supporting the removal. For more
than 25 years, both associations have urged all mental health
professionals to help dispel the stigma of mental illness that some
people still associate with homosexual orientation.


Can Lesbians, Gay Men, and Bisexuals Be Good Parents?

Yes. Studies comparing groups of children raised by homosexual and
by heterosexual parents find no developmental differences between
the two groups of children in four critical areas: their
intelligence, psychological adjustment, social adjustment, and
popularity with friends. It is also important to realize that a
parent's sexual orientation does not dictate his or her children's.

Another myth about homosexuality is the mistaken belief that gay men
have more of a tendency than heterosexual men to sexually molest
children. There is no evidence to suggest that homosexuals are more
likely than heterosexuals to molest children.


Why Do Some Gay Men, Lesbians and Bisexuals Tell People About Their
Sexual Orientation?

Because sharing that aspect of themselves with others is important
to their mental health. In fact, the process of identity development
for lesbians, gay men and bisexuals called "coming out", has been
found to be strongly related to psychological adjustment—the more
positive the gay, lesbian, or bisexual identity, the better one's
mental health and the higher one's self-esteem.


Why Is the "Coming Out" Process Difficult for Some Gay, Lesbian and
Bisexual People?

For some gay and bisexual people the coming out process is
difficult, for others it is not. Often lesbian, gay and bisexual
people feel afraid, different, and alone when they first realize
that their sexual orientation is different from the community norm.
This is particularly true for people becoming aware of their gay,
lesbian, or bisexual orientation as a child or adolescent, which is
not uncommon. And, depending on their families and where they live,
they may have to struggle against prejudice and misinformation about
homosexuality. Children and adolescents may be particularly
vulnerable to the deleterious effects of bias and stereotypes. They
may also fear being rejected by family, friends,co-workers, and
religious institutions. Some gay people have to worry about losing
their jobs or being harassed at school if their sexual orientation
became well known. Unfortunately, gay, lesbian and bisexual people
are at a higher risk for physical assault and violence than are
heterosexuals. Studies done in California in the mid 1990s showed
that nearly one-fifth of all lesbians who took part in the study and
more than one-fourth of all gay men who participated had been the
victim of a hate crime based on their sexual orientation. In another
California study of approximately 500 young adults, half of all the
young men participating in the study admitted to some form of anti-
gay aggression from name-calling to physical violence.


What Can Be Done to Overcome the Prejudice and Discrimination the
Gay Men, Lesbians, and Bisexuals Experience?

Research has found that the people who have the most positive
attitudes toward gay men, lesbians and bisexuals are those who say
they know one or more gay, lesbian or bisexual person well—often as
a friend or co-worker. For this reason, psychologists believe
negative attitudes toward gay people as a group are prejudices that
are not grounded in actual experiences but are based on stereotypes
and prejudice.

Furthermore, protection against violence and discrimination is very
important, just as it is for other minority groups. Some states
include violence against an individual on the basis of his or her
sexual orientation as a "hate crime" and 10 U.S. states have laws
against discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation.


Why is it Important for Society to be Better Educated About
Homosexuality?

Educating all people about sexual orientation and homosexuality is
likely to diminish anti-gay prejudice. Accurate information about
homosexuality is especially important to young people who are first
discovering and seeking to understand their sexuality—whether
homosexual, bisexual, or heterosexual. Fears that access to such
information will make more people gay have no validity—information
about homosexuality does not make someone gay or straight.


Are All Gay and Bisexual Men HIV Infected?

No. This is a commonly held myth. In reality, the risk of exposure
to HIV is related to a person's behavior, not their sexual
orientation. What's important to remember about HIV/AIDS is it is a
preventable disease through the use of safe sex practices and by not
using drugs.

Ang pagparusa: isang flash fiction

Ang Pagparusa
Thirdy Lopez

“Hindi nila alam na isang hayop ang nagsesermon sa kanila ng kabutihan” Sambit ni Mrs. Santos na isang social worker nang mapag-alaman niya ang ginagawa ng pari sa isang batang lalaki.

Dali-daling nag-imbestiga si Sarhento at matapos ang isang lingo ay nakapagpalabas na ng Warrant of Arrest na pirmado ni Judge Rason.

Tinipon ni Sarhento ang mga tauhan at pinag-usapan ang gagawing paghuli.

“Ang mga makasalanan ay pinarurusahan at….” Patuloy na sermon ng pari habang pinoposasan ni Sarhento.

Isang putok ng baril ang tumama sa puso ng pari sa kalagitnaan ng pag-huli. Isang babaeng nakahawak ng baril ang nagpaputok nito.

Ang Hayop

“Hindi nila alam na isang hayop ang nagsesermon sa kanila ng kabutihan” Sambit ni Mrs. Santos na isang social worker nang mapag-alaman niya ang ginagawa ng pari sa isang batang lalaki.

--> Isang flash fiction

Have nothing to say

Just want to post something...

Faustino Aguilar

Wala lang....

Isa siyang bitter na working class... Joke pero looking deeply...

Faustino Aguilar presented ideas including anti-feudalism, and socialism.. He took the perspective of the working class against the capitalists.

DLSU Filipino Department Professor had re-edited a book by this writer.

Adik sa DVD

Na-realize ko na isa akong adik sa pirated DVD....

Hear that world...

Isa akong adik...

Adik sa DVD galing Quiapo!

Old Entry: unable to post

Dunno when ito... An old post that has the right to be posted...

Last Wednesday, I woke up at 3am. I dunno why and I cannot go back to sleep as I keep thinking about my insecurities and failures. I still keep trying to forget my troubles.

I lie to myself and distract myself by doing other things but somehow its stll there. I came to think. This is one of those things that changes people's lives like bearing a baby at a young age. This is my challenge. This is a calling that wakes me up.

But the blow still hurts, maybe I can't stand up yet.

Unconsciously maybe this is what my body tells me. You can't accept the truth or You're just too afraid to know what really is going on.

Everything was just a dream. You were a phony and all that you did was a joke..

I can't sleep well, maybe I'm not well.

Currently Watching

4 episodes to go at tapos na ang first season....

I don't need my baby bottle no more...

Wake up!

I'm not conservative... I want everyone to think openly and let go of their inhibition.. based on what other people say.. I'm liberal.. I want change.. I hate boundaries.. Don't like walls..

Of course, there's comfort to limitations.. But sometimes, I'd rather not have them....

Let me be me...

C'mon... I need to be out there... Being sheltered for 19 years in my life and I want to be free... I let myself miss outside-school activities, gimmicks.. I stopped myself from being able to meet new friends... Now, I want to be free..

I don't want to waste my youth...

I don't have money for jumping off a cliff and landing ng nakapatiwarik... Pero if I did, I will bungee jump... I don't want to try that when I'm 50 and die with just a heart attack when I take my first step sa pag-hike sa mountain... I'm may be afraid.. But I want to conquer my fear....

I'm not a baby anymore...

I can take care of myself... You taught me to... Now, it's time to teach myself...

Mama/Papa, Hindi na ako bata.. Please let me be... Anong ba naman masama sa pag-tambay kasama ang friends... Masama ba magkaruon ng mga kaibigan na hindi ka iiwan kung kelangan mo sila?

Ayoko na ng friends na sa convenience lang nila nagpapakita... Childhood friends ko sila, oo... at magiging friends kami forever pero the closeness is long gone.. We's grown apart....

I'm strong... I can handle it.. I'd handled a lot of things and here I am still alive....

I'm 20 and give me a few more months and I can pick a girl and marry her... Start my own family and with my determination and hardworking attitude kaya ko... Watch me...

Pero I'm wise... I could get a cum laude if i wanted to.. But I don't want to nerd up.. like I did in Highschool... I wanna have fun.. I don't like boring at all...

Andaya niyo nga.. Feeling ko.. Bakit yung kapatid ko, ginaganyan niyo ba? I need my independence.. Hirap naman maging paboritong anak.. I reliquish my throne kung wala naman akong freedom at respeto sa aking freedom....

I don't need my baby bottle anymore... I can take care of myself...

NOTE: Nilalabas ko lang.. Hindi ko yan masasabi ng harap-harap.. It's the way I'm raised that I cannot say things right and up....

Am bored....

Yun lang..

Just bored...

Isa na namng IDEA

Sa ngayon, maliban sa academic at personal problems, namomoblema din ako sa paghahanap ng mga kapalit na officers.

Kasi naman, sumali-sali pa.. Mag-quiquit din pala tapos ang dami-daming trabaho ang iiwan..

E dahil onti na lang kami at tatlo sa kanila, mahirap hagilapin.. Sobrang-sobrang short handed kami..

May naisip ako...

TAG LINE:

"They could do it, I know you could"

"Hindi nila kinaya, Magagaling lang ang may kaya tulad mo"

Basta parang ganun....

Tapos, vacancies....

HHEHEHEHEHE

I'm back

Yehey!!

I bought a new monitor and I can use the computer in my house again!!

I still don't have a working computer at home

And that sucks...

It the 5th week of the 2nd term... Some thesis concerns are getting to me.. I can't handle them without a computer at home...

And I still have classes... Paano ko yun maasikaso?

Una kong gawin, kumuha ng checke sa loyola.. Paano ko naman makukuha yun e.. Office hours end when my class ends.. so paano? Kung makaka-tranport lang ako e gamit ang magic gagawin ko.. pero.....

Then, deposit the check and wait for 5 days to get it sa cash... HELP... Paano na yan?

Next, find a place na mura ang binebentang monitor...

Then, whoala...

HELP... Ang hirap nang walang computer...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Untitled

For pollution
I have a solution
Its his abortion
But that's no a resolution
Cause I don't know how...

Swerteng bata

September 28-October 1 - Walang kuryente sa Buong Metro Manila hanggang naging Makati, hanggang sa Village na lang namin...
- Wala pa palang phone line

October 2 - May kuryente na sa wakas. Dahil sa bagyo, may nangyari di maganda sa PLDT kaya ang aking ISP na Warpspeed ay hindi gumagana...
- No internet.

October 3- Bumili na ako ng ISP Bonanza upang makapaginternet
- Kapag bukas ng Power Supply, Umilaw ang CPU at nag-beep.. Sira ang monitor

Waaaahhhh!! Ang swerte ko naman....

Kakainis.....

Pampalaki ng ulo

Relsfor Class ng Friday:

Pinasulat kame ng reflection about our lesson. Binasa ng classmate ko yung sinulat ko.

Prof: R u Writer?
Thirdy habang lumalaki ang ulo actions more or less...

Utter Annoyance

Why?

• I don't have internet coz I did not pay my telephone bill yet.
• I hate my TH sked 9:40-1PM with 1-2:30 PM break/ ends in 4:10 (GRRR)
• I cannot text non-Globe users since I only have P2 left in my prepaid account
• I wake up at 5:30 am and I cannot go back to sleep or stay lying in my bed..
• Books cost P500++ each. Hope I don't need to buy any..

LAPTOP

Bakit kailangan ko ng laptop?

• Thesis - mas magiging madali ang buhay namen kung sabay-sabay kaming gumagawa ng thesis.
• Pwede nang gumawa sa freetime namen
• Collective wrking on thesis
• Collaboration
• Bonding, aba helful ang ganun sa team, nu..
• Ibang acads - Some professors required peeps to present.. If may portable device ako to present then, less problem sa aken at hindi ako mangagapa.. Hindi na rin ako makikigamit pag gumagawa ng acad stuff..
• Extra-curricular - For presentations and maximizing the use of time.. Pwedeng nag-aaral habang nagmeeting..

Eh, may computer lab naman kayo?

• Hindi siya open lagi..
• Hindi laging may available slots
  
• Limited ang capability ng lab computers
• hindi siya portable

Nung sinabi ko sa tatay ko yan..
Eto ang reply niya..
"Kung pagkain niyo nga lang hirap na hirap na ako... blah..blah..blah..blah"

Tahimik na lang ako...
Silence by Thirdy..

Procrastinate Thirdy.. Sige lang

It's not that I wasn't able to finish anything this week.

It's just that I opted to watch the Dark Angel Series than program applications for APPSDEV and our thesis. It's okay. It's just better if I opted different activities. Hey, I'm super stressed and I needed I break.. I got my break.. It's just a bit err.. difficult to go back to track with the whole thing..

Am trying to drive up a different path.. Working back to getting back on track.. And I will do that, watch me..

HEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE...

At least, hopefully.....

Delayed Blog: August 6

Last Friday, umatend ako ng SCA prayer meeting. Sabi ni Arcie, sometime within the program, Introduce yourself through an adjective..

Parang ang hirap nun, kaya ko bang idescribe ang sarili gamit ang isang adjective..

Option One: Describe myself as of the moment..

Perfect Word: Stressed
Although onti lang ang ginagawa ngayon. Nakanuod pa nga ako ng mga 5 episodes ng Dark Angel sa DVD.. Stressful pa rin kasi may emotional turmoil akong naranasan. Isama mo pa yung recurring insecutrity na hindi ko naman talaga kaya yung mga pinag-gagawa ko pressure sa acad stuff at start ng weird sleeping patterns saan nagigising ako ng 5:30am at nakakatulog ng 11:30pm.. Stressed is a perfect word for me.. Paulit-ulit na nagmamanifest kapag mabagal yung kausap ko.. Ang sarap sigawan "Ang slow mo naman, mamatay ka na.." Of course, I would mean the latter part pero stress ako kaya excuse na lang siguro.. This week, mas maraming i-rurush- thesis program na hindi pa rin namen inuumpisahan at Appsdev project na hindi pa rin nauumpisahan.. Ang dami pa naman atang ineexpect si danny cheng.. Good luck na lang! Meron pa palang quiz sa linalge.. Dapat pasado yun para hindi ako masyadong mamoblema sa finals.. Stress pa rin ako next week for sure..

Yun lang pala ang word na nagsusum sa akin this week and next week..

Option two: Entirely

Word One: Complicated
Mahirap intindihin minsan nga ako rin hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko masyado kasing komplicado

Word Two: Weird
Hindi naman siguro all of the time pero minsan ang weird ko talaga..

Word Three: Determined
Kapag inumpisahan at prioritized ko yan, tatapusin ko..

Word Four: Organized na spontaneous
I keep a planner, write donw list pero 60% of the time hindi ko siya sinusunod

Meron pa ba? Wala na akong maisip..

Free me

Release yourself
Against the waves
Outlooking your goals
Not noticing the obstacles
Away from the oppression
To Self-Satisfaction
Stop your decline
Live like you're divine
Trust not what they said
Content yourself 'til you're dead
Don't take any debt
Yet Live with depth
Free me from your opinion
Strengthen my worth

Crazy Ideas

No. 1
Study a foreign Language.
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Nagmamadaling umuwi.. May babaeng namimigay ng flyers.. Sabi ko sa sarili ko "Kawawa naman siya.. Walang dumadaan.." So kinuha ko yung flyer na binibigay niya.. (light bulb appears)
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No. 2
DVD-9
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After crossing the street, Pinuntahan ko yung sari-sari shop na dinadaanan ko araw-araw.. May mga DVD-9 dun.. Titles: Desperate Housewives, The OC, My Girl.. P150 each.. Hahanahpin ko yang mga yan sa Quiapo

No. 3
System Manager
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Nakarating na sa harap ng gate, nabasa ko yung text sa likod ng book ko.. "Your system manages your operations, but what manages your system?" Gusto ko talagang maging system manager, not a programmer.. but a manager.. Anyway, anyhow.. Boink boink.. I decided to systemized my management of people.. And manage the system that manages..

Ang Payong ko!!

HUHUHUHU!

Tuesday, morning
Nagmamadaling pumasok kasi kami yung unang magprepresent. Sa kalagitnaan ng kalsada, Nahati yung payong ko.. Bumaliktad yung ulo at nilipad..
Wala na akong payong.. At wala palang pasok sa subject na yon...

Wednesday,afternoon
Hinawakan ng payong buong umaga.. Nanggaling na sa LS, sa Gox, sa Miguel, sa SPS.. 4:40 PM. Naiwan ko pala yung payong ko sa lab.. Nilolock yung lab after ng class.. Good bye, payong..

Hindi pwedeng umulan kasi wala akong payong...

AIDS

Hindi niya ito inasahan --
"Katuwaan lang naman ang lahat"
Makamundong pagnanasang tinugon..
Katanungang nasagot..

Nilasap, sinalat, naramdaman
Sarap na paulit-ulit hinahanap..
Walang tunay na desisyon.
Muli't muli naranasan

Ginhawa ay gumanti..
Sakit biglang nadaing..
Tawag ng katotohanan
Napilitang mapansin

Katapusan mo'y natuldukan
Kinabukasan na hindi mahawakan
Pangarap na naglaho
Dahil lamang sa --

LOST

I failed again..
Why are these people looking for? Wala ba ako nuon..

I wonder whether or not I'm even fit to for such a thing..

Maybe nananaginip lang ako or nangngarap.. Panu kung hanggang dun na lang yon..

Panu na yon?

What if nagprepretend lang ba ako? Na-eenjoy ko naman bakit hindi nila yon nakikita?

Paano kapag deretso lang ako ng deretso.. Sulong ng sulong pero.. Wala naman akong patutunguhan..

Paano kung umasa ako sa pagbabago pero wala naman akong pagkakataong gawin yung pagbabago na iyon..

Baket ba? Anong mali...

Free me

Its that time of the term again when you can't even breathe (I'm exagerating)..

Wishing bakasyon na..

Sana Bakasyon na uli...

I'm dreaming of sleep.. while on vacation...

Lost Poem

After attending a lecture on eksphrasis kanina, I made a poem habang naglalakad.. I lost it.. After thinking about it.. Wala na, lost..

Naglalakad kasi sa gitna ng kalsada kaya hindi ko nasulat.. Tried to retrieve it but it's lost..

Saykle

Saykle

Thirdy Lopez

Dungaw sa may bintana

Nalusaw sa paghanga

Taglay mong talinhaga

Si Ako’y natatanga

Ikaw, Ako: napana

Utak ko’y nagalala

Ang puso ko’y sungla

Ating mundo tumila

Pinili makasama

Ako ngayon, umasa

Aking ikaw niyaya

Pala wala pag-asa

Sigaw

Sigaw

Thirdy Lopez

Hindi kami laruan

Wag kami pagnasahan

Itigil ang titigan

Isip na kasamaan

Gawin ito Bagaman

Kami iyong asahan

Hating pagmamahalan

Pansin kahalagahan

Puso bawat tahanan

Halagang kaunlaran

Dulot ay kagandahan

Kaming kababaihan
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Salamat kay Unyx for the inspiration

Theory on Thirdy

Baka naman, mas marami akong naiisip kapag pressured ako at stressed..

Kapag hindi, DVD mode lang..

I tried watching DVD kanina pero wala mas gusto ko pang gumawa ng project..

Start of obsession na matapos ang thesis..

Nuong Tamad ako:
DVD ng third season ng charmed; TRU Calling Series; Point Pleasant Series; ShinChan Movie; Aristocrats; Alladin; Jasmine's Enchanted Tales

Nuong pauwi sa bahay:
Interactive CD instead of publication; Story idea about tutor teaching poor kids

Cinemalaya, Time pressure

I'm so annoyed that I wasn't able to go to CCP and watch a film in CineMalaya.. Andami kasing class.. Meeting at dapat gawin.. No time for Cinemalaya.. Ngayon sana pero I have an interview at 11, workshop at 1 and have to go a friend by 4. Home by 6.. Wala na tapos na ang Cinemalaya

Tinatamad akong gumawa ng school stuff.. Pero pinipilit ng katawan kong gumawa kahit ayaw ko.. back to waking up at 6am.. Hindi makatulog.. Sinasabing gumawa na ng school work pero hindi pa rin ako nakikinig.. Nanuod na lang ng DVD o nag-internet..

I want to write..

Am I in a dry spell?

I had not written anything good for a while now..

No spontaneous poems.

No crazy sudden fiction..

Stressed? Experiencing writer's block..

No time to write?

Ambahan

Parang gusto ko tuloy gumawa ng ambahan

May hinahanap ako

Kailangan matanto

.. itutuloy...

Tanga ka ba?

Para sa iyo na tatanga-tanga..

Ayokong magwaste ng time.. Mag-iispray na lang ako ng lysol para mamatay ang mga germs sa mundo..

Maskara

I'd never I thought that I get to wear this mask.
To hide my feelings through a smile.

To laugh when I want to cry
To be around people when I want to be alone

To force myself to feel confidence
And to forget the past and face the present

3D IMAX

A BIG

WOW!

I was in awe for the whole day yesterday. Hanggang ngayon, Bilib na bilib pa din ako..

Grabe!Sobra! OMG!

AMAZING! ANG Galing!

3D IMAX: Manunuod uli ako dyan.. Mahal lang ang sine pero WOW!Ang Galing!

Non-continuous thought on artapre..

Baroque signifies majesty. An elaboration is characteristic of majesty. We think of our God as majectic, or we could associate this majesty over our belief that he is omniscient, omnipotent, and present.............

Baroque in Philippine Architecture (An opinion)

I see God as a friend who guides me in my life. I see him as an ally, somebody who tells me what to do and cheers me up when I’m down..................

As a.............

I must agree with Jahra when she...........

On Artapre

My original idea was to take inter-active story telling for the free elective. However, that elective was for ST so I had to decide, what should I take? I didn't want another management subject, too straining. Not a language subject, my head would hurt from all the mumbojumbo.
I wanted a common schedule with my friends so I took Artapre. Joyce asked me to join her at the S19 slot at pumayag naman ako..
After enrollment, I ended up na mag-isa lang sa class.. Err.. Puro 104 kasama ko..Buti na lang nanduon din si Pam..

On art
I really love appreciating and putting that appreciation to the written word. However, this subject did not cover literature. Pero it still kept my interest over the other arts. Sana lang mas maraming pinoy artworks.

On Music
I learned to appreciate Mozart's music. I never really got it. Up to know, I still don't but there's something there that I understand. Someday, when I get the time I wanna get it..
Lucio San Pedro, I wish we paid more attention to it. Dinaanan lang namen yun..Sayang ang galing-galing pa naman niya..

Philosophy vs. Psychology

When I took GENPSYC, our professor had a big head. Yesterday, I saw him and his head is bigger.
I learned a lot from that subject and gained a liking to that subject.

I'm now taking INTPHIL and our professor had a flat head. I don't understand anything he says and developed a negative impression on the subject.

It's time for implied conclusions.. Think! Think!

Extended

Redesigning DE LA SALLE UNIVERSITY

Put a roof sa Sports Plaza.
Rename to Business Center.
Remove the basketball rings.
Put a one floor building.
Na may glass thingie.
May Aircon.

Sosyal noh?
Malamig pa..
Tiyak na pupunta talaga ang mga estudyante.

Rent

Antagal na rin nuong huli kong napanuod yung rent..

Pero hindi ko pa rin talaga, makalimutan..

Sa tulong pa ng OST na binigay ni Yumi (Salamat pa din!)

Sa tulong ng Lyric na dinownload ko sa rentmovie.com

Memorize ko na yung favorite songs ko sa musical

-> You'll See
-> Light my Candle
-> Tango Maureen
-> Life Support
-> Out Tonight
-> I'll Cover YOu
-> I'll Cover You - Reprise
-> Take Me or Leave Me

Stupid Philiosophy

I don't get..

A lot of words without any sense..

A lot of questions, not really having the need to ask them..

Stupid Philosophy

Writers' Guild: Imagine and Write

Image by: Trick

Straight UP

Clean up your act!!

Tama na yan..

Just do it...

Oras na pala bumalik sa dating gawi..

MAGTRABAHO!

Wicked Witch

Ano bang problema niya?

Bakit siya ganyan?

Wala naman akong magagawa dahil pamilya siya..

Pag pasensyahan..

Wag mo na lang pakinggan..

Ipasok sa tenga labas sa kabilang butas..

Nakakahiya ka.. Tawanan mo kunwari kahit hiyang-hiya ka na..

I forgot

I was suppose to rant about something but I forgot kung anu yon..

Colors

I used to force color in my life..

Did everything for determination..

But when you came into my life, Colors came naturally..

I no longer had to try..

Addiction intake

You Should Weigh 180

If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight. If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!

How Much Do You Weigh?

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause. You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them. Power: force beams from your eyes

Which of the X-Men Are You?

You Belong in 1979

If you scored... 1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in! 1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too. 1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all! 1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day. 1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

You Are Likely an Only Child

At your darkest moments, you feel frustrated. At work and school, you do best when you're organizing. When you love someone, you tend to worry about them. In friendship, you are emotional and sympathetic. Your ideal careers are: radio announcer, finance, teaching, ministry, and management. You will leave your mark on the world with organizational leadership, maybe as the author of self-help books.

The Birth Order Predictor

EHHH.. WRONG!

Your Mexican Name Is...

Don Cruz

What's Your Mexican Name?

Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"

You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love. You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!) Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

You Are 45% Addicted to Blogthings

You're a Blogthings fiend - addicted but not totally dependent. So what if you know your personality type by heart? And while you may feel like Blogthings is crack... There are people much worse off than you!

How Addicted To Blogthings Are You?

Art Appreciation-ically challenged

I don't get it..

It is something but how can you express your appreciation to say.. A mozart song..

I don't know notes.. I don't understand progression of tones and melodies, as well dynamics..

I cannot distinguish the difference in each line...

I don't get it..

I like it.. Its interesting to listen but how can you define an appreciation?

What if I don't get it..

Sinong Tinatamad?

I had a better summer this year..

I wasn't stressed from going to school so much..

I spent my days at Makati during those days..

Plus I spent 1-3 hours sa school on the average..

I spent most of my summer lying down.. Watching VCDs and DVDs..

The start of class was a slow transition.. DVD, then class, then TV programs..

Now, the second week almost "kalagitnaan na..."

I have tons of things to do.. Very simple things..

Pero tinatamad ako.. Crap..

Sinisipag kasi ako nuong Sunday kaya lang walang computer so yan.. dami pang gagawin...

Addiction blogthings

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few. But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky. Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

You Are 64% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

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You Are Rudolph

Sweet and shy, you tend to be happiest when you're making someone else happy. Why You're Naughty: You sometimes stick that nose where it doesn't belong Why You're Nice: Christmas would be a sad affair without you!

Which of Santa's Reindeer Are You?

Ok lang...

Your Stripper Song Is

Closer by Nine Inch Nails "You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I�ve got no Soul to tell" When you dance, it's a little scary - and a lot sexy.

What Song Should You Strip To?

Di ko alam yun e...

Your Monster Profile

Merciless Slimer You Feast On: Power Bars You Lurk Around In: The Empire State Building You Especially Like to Torment: Hippies

What's Your Monster Name?

Ang panget naman..

Your Outrageous Name is:

Dan Druff

Outrageous Name Generator

Corny...

Your Brain is 27% Female, 73% Male

You have a total boy brain Logical and detailed, you tend to look at the facts And while your emotions do sway you sometimes... You never like to get feelings too involved

What Gender Is Your Brain?

OKIES...

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Inconsistent...

You're a Wild Drunk

You can get enough drink. Seriously, you'll just go puke and start pounding them back again!

What Kind of Drunk Are You?

DOn't drink..

Your Porn Star Name Is...

Dan Rather

What's Your Porn Star Name?

Bago uli..

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How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.

Your Hillbilly Name Is...

Otis Birmingham

Your Theme Song is Beautiful Day by U2

"Sky falls, you feel likeIt's a beautiful dayDon't let it get away" You see the beauty in life, especially in ordinary everyday moments.And if you're feeling down, even that seems a little beautiful too.

What's" Your Theme Song?

You Are Barney

You could have been an intellectual leader... Instead, your whole life is an homage to beer You will be remembered for: your beautiful singing voice and your burps Your life philosophy: "There's nothing like beer to give you that inflated sense of self-esteem."

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Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people.In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

You Were a Coyote

Brutally honest, you encourage people to show their true selves.You laugh at life - none of it can be taken too seriously.

Your Inner Blood Type is Type A

You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy.You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself.Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in.People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal. You are most compatible with: A and AB Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter

What's" Your Inner Blood Type?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Ren Nakamura

What's" your Japanese Name?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

You Are More Mild Than Wild

You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are.Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.

People Envy Your Confidence

You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind.People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself.

Your Love Element Is Earth

In love, you have consistency and integrity.For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered. You attract others with your zest for life and experiences.Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time. Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life.You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk. You connect best with: Fire Avoid: Wood You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation

What Your Underwear Says About You

You're a total rebel who doesn't conform to any rules. P.S. - It's a jungle down there! You're also way too lazy to do your laundry more than a few times a year.

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced. Overall, your true self is reserved and logical. With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

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You Should Be a Song Writer

You have the ability to evoke emotion, tell a story, and hook someone...In a very small amount of words, perhaps with some deft rhyming.Even if you can't write music, you can sure write compelling lyrics.Lyrics so good, people will have them stuck in their heads!

Oh what fun.. I'm mainstream...

You Are a Boston Creme Donut

You have a tough exterior. No one wants to mess with you.But on the inside, you're a total pushover and completely soft.You're a traditionalist, and you don't change easily.You're likely to eat the same doughnut every morning, and pout if it's sold out.

My favorite!!

Your Porn Star Name Is...

Michael J. Cox

What's" Your Porn Star Name?

How creative.. try again..

Your Porn Star Name Is...

Bam Bam

What's" Your Porn Star Name?

Ok... :) :) :)

Your Daddy Is OJ

What You Call Him: Old Man Why You Love Him: He takes you to Disneyland

Who's" Your Daddy?

You Will Die at Age 91

Congratulations! You take good care of yourself.You're poised to live a long, healthy life.

Pasukan na naman!

My summer vacation is officially over after today..

by 12:50 tomorrow, I will be facing a dreaded math teacher, hopefully s/he's one of those teachers who teaches well and gives easy exams..

With class ending at 6pm..

Why did I choose to have a crazy schedule? Ahh.. I had no choice.. By next term, I shall enlist myself in the advance enrollees again and have my preferred schedule again..

Good thing This vacation wasn't a waste.. I saw a lot of vcds and dvds movies.. I mean movies.. I went everywhere. And Family had an outing.. At last..

Work.. here they come.. I'm partially ready.. partial lang..

Ang love.. Corny

Ang corny ng love..

Gusto mo lagi kayong magkasama.. Gusto mo laging kayong magkausap.. katext.. Kahit malayo kayo sa isa't isa pilit mo pa ring hinahanap..

Lagi kayong may tawag sa isa't - isa.. I love you.. I love you, too..

May anniversary pa kayong nalalaman.. Monthsary.. At hindi kayo pwedeng istorbohin..

Kapag magkasama kayo, wala nang ibang tao sa paligid niyo.. Langit ang lahat kapag katabi mo siya.. Panaginip ang magkasama kayo..

Pati ibang tao dinadamay mo sa kakornihan mo.. Ipinaaalam sa lahat..

Ang corny ng love...

Pero ang nakakatawa/nakakaasar na ang love kahit ganu pa yan kakorni ay masaya para sa inyong dalawa...

Judge Me Not

Who are you to judge me?

Constitute my being through my failures..

Why don't you just define me by my achievements?

Can't you recognize the actions that I did to avoid those failures?

Can't you just recognize the knowledge I incurred in those mistakes?

Face it, PEOPLE change. PEOPLE learn.

I AM PEOPLE. I changed. I learned.

Easter Message

I would like to wish everyone a Happy Easter!

I hope everybody had used this time off to rest, sleep and unwind whether on the beach, up a mountain or in the comforts of our own home.

Thank You!

The first three lines are dedicated to everybody except our stupid and deranged President, GMA.

I hope you die soon! I hope you trip and your head falls off.

You don't have a brain and you own no consistency for that I wish a plane lands on you squishing you until your last breathe.

I hope one of your body guards steps on you and you instantly lose youre breath and die.

May the devil take your living essence.

How to fix a perfect cube?

Step One:
Throw the cube toy away.

Step Two:
Try and try again until every piece breaks off..

Step Three:
Arrange according to Color

Step Four:
WHOALA! IT's FIXED!

Variation:
Instead of removing the blocks, remove the stickers.

Another variation:
remove Steickers, now they all have the same color..

I'm bored..

I'm a straw without strength..

All I want to do is to sleep..

Is it ok? It should be this is me vacation!

Now I'm bored but I'm too tamad to move or do anything..

It's my vacation..

Guess, I'll take another nap later..

Should have

If I knew three people would be applying for the position of President..

I would have run..

I'm not sure if I'll win but the experience would have been great..

If I won, the opportunities would have great..

But I choose to be committed so here is my life..

It doesn't suck.. C'mon I'm thinking that I should met some of these people a year ago then my organization would be the best..

But right now.. It's not great at all.. But it will be..

I used to think I could do it alone.. I wasn't able to..

And my EB wasn't much help so I had to settle for improvement..

Now, I have the best people.. WE WILL ROCK this UNIVERSITY!

I applied for the BA again..

I dunno why.. But I did..

Despite how boring and ineffective my experience in the BA was...

I still applied for it again..

Guess it's calling to me and I replied to this call by sending out an application..

I applied for either positions:

• Executive Secretary
• Executive Treasurer

I think I wanted a better position so that I can grow?

HEHEHE.. Whatever.. It's still up to them to appoint me to the position..

BTW: I thought of applying for the Computer Studies Assembly but the thought of being under somebody younger that me freaks me.. So no to CSA..

Funny.. Wait till you meet the CSO Executive Board...HAHAHAHAHA!

Jessica Simpson

She’s not that stupid. She’s playin’ You!

Women can do that.. And They’ll do that.. All to play you..

And You’ll love them despite it..

Why can’t men play girls or play other men.. It’s boring..

Why can’t we smile and get what we want?

That’s life you have to face it!

I can’t sing about having sex and earn billions of dollars..

There’s nothing to it if I clean a car..

I’d be disgusting if I each chicken out of a bucket..

I’m babbling again… Don’t listen… Just laugh..

Is this what comes out of boredom?

Anyway, I wanted to bash her and praise her at the same time..

I guess my thoughts are all over this place..

WHATEVER, JESSICA SIMPSON…

Rent

Rent is one of the longest-running shows in broadway. It tells of a story of 6 bohemians.. Blahblah.. struggling for their craft and battling AIDS..

See siteforrent.com for complete details..

If anybody who knows me care to invite me to watch this show on Broadway, I'll be happy to accompany you! Just take care of my pamasahe and other things.. I'll be a good boy the whole trip..

On Rosario Dawson

Grabe ampayat na niya.. Kung makikita mo yung earlier movies na you would totally agree.. As compared to Josie and the Pussycats nga.. Makikita mo talaga yung kapayatan niya ngayon.. Anyway, she’s a great actress for the role Mimi.. Bagay talaga.. HAHAHA! May mga taong napapangitan sa kanya pero she’s OK naman e.. I’m actually blabbering.. Wala naman talaga akong gusting sabihin e..

On The Girl who played Joan

I tot she was part of the Broadway cast yun pala she’s a TV actress.. For me, hands down ako sa performance niya. I tot part talaga siya ng broadway cast.

On Taye Diggs

No comment! Parang epal lang siya dun e.. Nagfafade sa background..

On Broadway cast

Hands Down! Lalo na sa guy who played Mark.. No wonder you won Tony’s Hands Down! Mabababoy siguro talaga yung movie kapag pinasok mo sila Justin and Britney. Wise decision on Chris Columbus’ part when he realized that the original cast would be perfect for the RENT MOVIE roles..

On Angel and Benny

Perfect.. Simply perfect love.. Haay! I’ll cover you.. How cute! I cried at the part where a certain somebody died.. Napansin kaya ng katabi ko yun? Hehe..

On Joan and Maureen

Talk about opposites attract.. Panalo si Maureen sa protest niya.. One of the funniest things I’d ever seen

On Benny and Mimi

Boy meets Girl.. Girl seduces Boy.. Boy turns down girl.. Boy gets over former girlfriend who took her own life upon discovering she has HIV.. Boy finally leaves apartment.. Asks girl out.. They both discover they both have HIV.. They pledge to be with each other.. Girl gets with Benny after Boy discovers she didn’t quit taking drugs after All.. (And I tot Benny’s married..)… Boy leaves and returns.. Girl if found, dies and lives again.. Movie Ends..

On Mark

Panalo talaga!

I’m blaberring.. Just buy the DVD and see what it is all about…

“No day but Today!” – Rent

Over!

I'm over.. this sort of stupidity..

I'm back to me...

No not back coz I'm better..

Mas masama..

Mas matatag..

Moving on.. It's over..

Mind Control

I heard a song by a rock band.. I have no idea what the song is or who was the rock band singing that song.. But it kept singing the line..

GOODBYE FOR NOW..

Maybe.. I gave up whatever for the whatever I wanted to have with you.. Only to be broken..
I dunno did it end.. was that the last time I'll ever here from you..

I keep the same message in my phone.. Kahit na pare-pareho pa yan..

Gud Nyt!.. :)

Sana naman magkwento ka...

Ewan ko.. Wala na ata.. O busy ka talaga masyado.. Bakit ka kaya busy.. Ni kwento di mo man mashare sa aken..

Simpleng gud nyt! tatlong gabi na.. yan pa din ang message...

Swak na swak na si Aaliyah...

"It's been so long and I'm lost with you. What am I gonna do, said I'd been needing you, wanting you.. Waiting and wondering if who's there with you.. Is it my heart's demise?.. Coz I wanna cry sometimes.. I miss you"

Di muna ako magiintay..

Di muna ako tatanga..

GOODBYE FOR NOW!

Marami pa akong dapat gawin...

My Song: that pussycat dolls song about looking at my... while you playing with your... I keep doing my thing.. While your looking at my..

What if?

I given up something for you..

I wonder..

What if you'd reject me..

What if you hurt me?

I will be down.. But I'd rather have this than fake whatever I may have with anyone..

I just wish that doesn't happen...

I wanna be with you..

Hope you feel the same...

I'm so happy!

Sobrang saya ko nung nagparamdam ka na rin..

Sa wakas, naramdaman din kita..

May rason naman pala.. Buti na lang nagparamdam ka ginanahan tuloy ako...

Kaya ko to!

Excited na ako.. Makita kang muli..

Pero magiintay lang ako..

Marami pa tayong dapat gawin..

I tot of u

I'd rather not..

But I can't help myself..

I tot of u..

I felt longing..

I wished to find you...

But I can only wait..

I tot of u...

I wish this tot were true..

I wish you could be here..

But I know..

All that I can do..

is think of u...

I tot of u..

I wish I didn't

But I did...

There\'s something about today

Sa aking palagay there\'s something about today..

Walang kinalaman sa hallmark holiday na Valentines..

Pero ginaganahan akong maging bitter!

Wala naman masama di ba?

Kung gusto mag rant instead of raving..


Kung gusto kong mangaway kaysa kumausap ng maayos..

Trying..

try ko lang kung pwede!

Ice cream

I want to eat ice cream..

There's cookies and creme and strawberry..

I like em both..

But my throat is sore.. I can only eat one..

Or else I'll get sick again..

Which one will I have..

I dunno...

Thesis Talks

Now I get it why we failed the first time. What we were defending was a part of the EDM System, definitely. However, it was only a small part of it, namely data storage and distribution. What an EDMS constitutes a workflow following the creation until the disposal of the document. Thus including, versioning, document searching, security and management of these documents.

However, I still don’t get how we can pass this time. Looking and understanding concepts are difficult to find.. But if there’s a will, there’s a way so just go!

Anu na gagawin ko?

Now, I'm bored...

I decided but still deciding what do you think

I decided..

COMPANY A!

Still deciding...

I found a way na pagsabayin yung partime at student leader responsibility..

NOw to decide which responsibility:

Continue or move forward....

English Camp

Yikee....

Natuwa talaga ako ng mabasa ko ang isang email na nagiimbeta sa isang english camp..

Mejo isang essay ang requirement pero sus... Alam na alam ko naman yung topic... "My Vision of a Better World"

Ako pa.. Hindi ko yan masasagot...

Ako pa!

Wala pa rin nag-aaply kaya sana lang.. maqualify ako..

Trip na trip ko kaya yon...

Miss ko nang mag-blog...

Haay naku..

Since bakasyon, hindi pa ako nagblog-blog..

Inenjoy ko talaga yung malayo sa email na nag-iistrain sa mga dapat gawin...

Pahinga ako!

Tapos ng bakasyon, eto OJT na... Sa 8-5 na sked san ko naman hahanapin ang oras na maginternet...

Maaga magigising, pag may ginawa kang iba.. Malalate ka..

Buti sana kung okay lang malate tulad pag klase... HINDI.. bawal ma-late....

Buti sana kung katulad pag iskul ang commute ko na isang jeep lang..

HINDI, kelangan kong sumakay sa isang tricycle, jeep at MRT...

Pag uwi, MRT at jeep at tricycle o kaya naman, bus at tricycle..

O di ba.. Nag-BUBUS na ako... San ka pa?

Anyway, here am I nagbloblog sa Company A kasi tapos na ako sa pinapagawa at walang WEB sense ngayun kaya nakakapaglog-in kami kung saan saan..

WAHAHAHAHAHA!